Hi. I miss you badly. But you never knew. You seem to think that I am trying to run from you. Well no im not. Im just want to make things better. You know I always feel bored when people keep asking me the same question. Like buat apa buat apa. Dude you know that I am a homie I rarely go out. Its not like I have a rugby tournament in my house. I duduk rumah goyang kaki lah apa lagi what do you expect I want to do. My friends also not asking me the same question.  Yes I love you. I love you just the way you are but you must know what I dislike what I like. Like I said, I might hurt you. I am complicated. You must know that. Its not that easy to have me. I am not like other girls you've met. If you're gonna text or talk with other girls I just dont care. Look you are not my husband okay. You belum halal lagi untuk I. So why should I bother. You got your own life. So live your life to the fullest. Doesn't mean that I love you I should say that you cant talk with other girls you cant text or have anything with other girls. Im not like that. I know who I am. Dude please I am not your wife  I am just a girl that you love and you want to get married with. But we havent married so please understand. Give me my space for my family and I. Just do what you watvto to do im okay. As long as it is good. I know that you missed me. Sigh dont you know that I miss you so much. To not hearing your voice. To not watching your face in real. But I just bear it and doa. We both want to take spm right next year? So time to focus on our studies. Lets give a break about us for one year. It gonna be worth it trust me. All I hope was we get straight As in spm and we further our studies in overseas or in any university and we met again when we are better for each other. When we've become someone in this society. The we'll get married. I think that's the right thing to do. To get something you have to let go something. Hm I just miss you.so much.and  I am overnight thinking how to explain to uou about this. Im sleepy now so goodnight.